Change can be really difficult even when we know that it's for the best. While familiarity and routine can bring us comfort, they do not necessarily encourage us to live our lives to the fullest.
I am 26 and I have this huge fear that I am not living my life to the fullest. That I'm letting my best years pass me by in a dull routine of work work work. That I'm staying in a relationship that no longer makes me happy because I'm scared of heartbreak. That I should be young and carefree with not a worry in the world but in truth I'm carrying 10 lifetimes' worth of worries. That I'm too young to feel this old. Being in your twenties is fucking hard people!
All of these feelings (and some other stuff I won't cover just yet) came to a head 3 weeks ago. Neil and I decided to move out of our flat and take a step back from our relationship. We're on a break and can see other people. I moved out this weekend with the help of some amazing friends and my sisters and I'm slowly adjusting to life in some kind of strange limbo land. On the upside, at least I'm back in south London.
Give me peace and torrid affairs.
2 years ago
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Yeesh. Change happens but it's usually for the best. Good that you recognised you weren't happy, and did something about it. Hope you're feeling ok about it all x
Yeesh indeed x
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